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Variations of the same dark choice.

31 Mar

One,

Pour me a line

Two,

He dips inside

Three

Laughing away

Four

Shutting the door

Five

The ground’s getting closer

Six

Close to my face

Seven

Isn’t it great?

Eight

The next day:

Nine

Bloodshot eyes Feeling so dizzy

Ten

Mom’s coming in, feeling uneasy.

Then

Feeling remorse. Cant wait for more.

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Not too long ago…

27 Jan

 

It was not too long ago

When I looked up and saw

The feelings arise

When we said goodbye

 

It was not too long ago

When your eyes saw my eyes

And told me not to cry

 

Not only but some seconds have passed

The time, how it elapsed

And suddenly change

Began to take place

 

I did not want it

I didn’t condone it

I did nothing to deserve it

But it came anyways

 

Swiftly in fact,

Too swift for my taste

Did it take away

The memories of yesterday

 

So I uncertainly say

That it was not long ago

But truly it could’ve been years

From here to near

 

I would never know

It’s a memory left very alone

Suppressed back

As far as it goes

 

I could not have thought

Of anything to make it come back

But then I saw you

And that was when I knew

Just how far back

A while was.

And you got a smile..that can light up this whole town….

14 Oct

” dreaming of the day when you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time…..Think i know where you belong , think i know it’s with me”- You belong with me by Taylor Swift

so…..i’m in trouble……. with my feelings.

Yeah, I don’t know what I am going to do because it is so confusing, I like this guy, who likes me and we’re going out, not officially and I’m going to meet his parents…..BUTTTT…..i also like this guy who I just recently went out with and my BF knows about him, he just doesn’t know I like him…and I can’t tell him, my bf is head over heels in love with me and I just keep wondering, what is stopping me from being head over heels in love with him? There’s attraction, there’s chemistry, there’s love…. there’s passion…..i really don’t know what’s wrong, and I can’t logically see the problem, BUT of course…it just so happens to be an illogical problem does it not? But I really do like my bf and I am very happy with him, I know he’ll take care of me and we’ll be happy ultimately, after A LOT of trials, and I am very willing to be there for him, what I’m not willing to do is be let down. If I could trust him through everything maybe things would be different, but he’s faulted 3 times on something that you should not fault even once in. And the third time, he just got lucky.  My parents and him don’t get along just because of those faulty things and also because he’s still married, yeah they’re separated and most likely he hates her now and doesn’t want to talk to her ever again and they are going through the divorce papers, but he isn’t the “go getter” type unless you push him, and I can’t always push, sometimes I’m the one that needs to be pushed and I just don’t know how compatible “exactly alike” is.

On the other hand, the other guy is great in every way, and doesn’t have that which I have mentioned, however he’s older than I’d prefer which isn’t a problem, he’s just getting ready for marriage and I am so not ready for that. But he does have a lot of plusses….that he rocks my socks :] lol, mainly he’s a great guy even though he doesn’t think so, I do. He is really sweet and if he actually put thought into it he would make any girl happy, he’s got a dirty mind just like me but he’s not exactly like me, I know we would disagree on a lot of stuff and have fights some times, but I know that we make each other melt. That we could never stay mad at each other, he and I share some similarities but something else is that he has a GF and I’m not sure how happy they are together….but he seems happy yet he says things that sometimes confuse me and Idk if he’s messing with my mind or of he means them, because I AM so sure he knows I have a crush on him and I don’t know if he has one on me but I kind of feel like he does and when I think about It I’m happy for an instant after that I worry because I want to be with him but I don’t want to be without my bf, my bf rocks too you know :). But I honestly don’t know what to do, Me and the other guy have made plans already to hang out several times , we’re going to go makes s’mores together [it’s kind of our thing…and it’s weird that we have a thing] and then we have this dinner who done it show that we’re really excited about and idk….i’m anticipating that but everyday we talk I get more and more anxious to be with him, we always have so much fun together and I love every moment of it. I also love being with my bf, last time I even considered leaving a guy for another guy….was because I was in an unhappy seemingly happy relationship, but that’s not the case.

Plus i honestly don’t think the other guy would fight for me….if I’m going to leave my current BF, this other guy needs to give me a damn good reason …he needs to fight for who he loves, whether that’s me or his GF

Plus…another provability is that I want what I cant have.

But what made me write this post is the fact that him and I were talking yesterday and this was our convo:

[10/13/2009 11:54:25 PM] HIM: tell me more

[10/13/2009 11:54:27 PM] HIM: about this friend?

[10/13/2009 11:54:27 PM] ME: s

[10/13/2009 11:54:30 PM] ME: lol

[10/13/2009 11:54:31 PM] ME: she’s taken

[10/13/2009 11:54:34 PM] ME: sorry

[10/13/2009 11:54:38 PM] HIM: all the good ones are

[10/13/2009 11:54:42 PM] ME: welll

[10/13/2009 11:54:42 PM] HIM: seriously

[10/13/2009 11:54:43 PM] ME: yeah

[10/13/2009 11:54:45 PM] HIM: its like the story of my life 🙂

[10/13/2009 11:54:47 PM] ME: lol

[10/13/2009 11:54:49 PM] ME: AND mine

[10/13/2009 11:54:51 PM] HIM: i meet someone

[10/13/2009 11:54:52 PM] HIM: fall for someone

[10/13/2009 11:54:54 PM] HIM: and she’s taken

And then he wouldn’t say who this girl was….so I honestly don’t know what to think about it, but I know I don’t want to loose him as a friend.

Cafe Con Leche

6 Oct

Oh you Americans…thinking you created the “latte”…first of all…the word is French…so why would you even think that? Then comes the fact that yeah u created something but it was more like water and some instant coffee and milk….we Cubans, know what’s up….WE’LL wake you up for sure….you guys are drinking the weak stuff and you’re addicted to it? well…that sucks….you can’t even enjoy a GOOD cup of joe huh? Well, to fix your problems I suggest you go to Miami and find some good Cuban friends (basically the first Cuban you see, because we are ALL good Cuban friends…it’s weird….but it’s innate) just get them to invite you over, which is not hard, and they will make you the best cup of coffee you will have ever tasted….and you can call it a Latte…we’ll let you. You will never want that overpriced, over watered, overrated starbucks again. I can go to COLOMBIA and get a pound of coffee and a small boy for the price of a cup of coffee at starbucks….seriously. [Btw…that was not my original joke, I stole it from a comedian however I cannot remember his name, but he was SOO Right]

Onwards! To actual news! [Because face it…everyone knows coffee is really expensive…]

So…as I sit here

Writing to you

I’m really thinking

About how I have a paper due

So what do I do?

I keep sitting here                        

Writing to you….                                                                                                                        

 

That’s like…an ode to procrastination…happening RIGHT NOW! *gasp* I’m so bad though…the damn thing is due in like 2 hours….wtf….right? Well that’s why I’ve decided to make this fast…

me–the bf–going out—almost 2 months–lovely–wrote poems–hearts soar–great dates–and great…you know….love this guy—really think it’s something.

Yep. Not going to waste time telling you how he makes me feel because I want to save that post for when I have a research paper due…yep…

LOVE YAS.

Dai Tai.

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